( It's true that Alhaitham didn't make the food before them, but Kaveh will always feel inclined to use his manners. The silence lingers shortly afterwards, and the blonde man glances up to gaze at the Scribe once his statement commands his attention. With a deep breath, Kaveh returns his focus to their meal. )
I understand. And ... when I told you I said embarrassing nonsense to you earlier, that's more or less how it went down. ( He swallows. ) I don't know what came over me, it might've been something in my drink, but I couldn't stop myself from telling you how much I preferred your company to living on my own. It was ... so mortifying.
We haven't always seen eye to eye on many things, and this wouldn't be the first time I made such an embarrassing blunder in front of you. But still ... ( The pain comes from how vulnerable he felt. How much it ties with his past. ) I just ... really convinced myself that I frightened you away. That you decided you had enough and were done with me. ( And since Alhaitham knows Kaveh's history, he'll know how the blonde man feels about prospective abandonment. ) I might not have dealt with it in the healthiest way, either ... but I want to get better.
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( It's true that Alhaitham didn't make the food before them, but Kaveh will always feel inclined to use his manners. The silence lingers shortly afterwards, and the blonde man glances up to gaze at the Scribe once his statement commands his attention. With a deep breath, Kaveh returns his focus to their meal. )
I understand. And ... when I told you I said embarrassing nonsense to you earlier, that's more or less how it went down. ( He swallows. ) I don't know what came over me, it might've been something in my drink, but I couldn't stop myself from telling you how much I preferred your company to living on my own. It was ... so mortifying.
We haven't always seen eye to eye on many things, and this wouldn't be the first time I made such an embarrassing blunder in front of you. But still ... ( The pain comes from how vulnerable he felt. How much it ties with his past. ) I just ... really convinced myself that I frightened you away. That you decided you had enough and were done with me. ( And since Alhaitham knows Kaveh's history, he'll know how the blonde man feels about prospective abandonment. ) I might not have dealt with it in the healthiest way, either ... but I want to get better.